My new normal is nothing like ‘normal’. And I hurt, so much that it is in my soul, my body. my spirit. I know that this ‘normal’ will eventually change to another ‘normal’. But I will never be the same as before my son died. Before my entire world fell apart. I have plenty of counseling, and prayer, and ‘advice’, but still, the fact is, I am lost. And that is my new normal for now.